As if I didn’t have enough negative emotion coursing through my psyche, I feel bad… Throughout the day, several opportunities for social interactions are presented to me. Just run of the mill water-cooler-talk. I’ve noticed my attitude towards such situations has been, distant. I feel, irritated. I look, irritated. As much as I wish to … Continue reading Self Alienation.
Original Lyrics… I put my pen to this pad, to set myself free.. It releases all of the stress, buried deep inside of me… But it always comes back, and pulls me back down… I reach out my hand, but there’s no body else around… How do I stop my heart, from chasing what it … Continue reading Story of My Life (Original Lyrics)
We’ve all heard or have used the phrase, “I’m so over today”. Lately, that’s been me every day. I got off of work yesterday, and slept. I woke up at 2000, but went right back to sleep. Again at 2330, then desperately tried to go back to sleep. I guess what I’m getting at is, … Continue reading Free To Good Home
More recently, I’ve tried to hide my pain with neglect, and anger. From the outside looking in, you’d scoff, and tell yourself. “hmph, same ‘ol asshole.” When that’s not the case. How can you expect someone who you’ve been kicking in the face to keep reaching out to you with open arms? If I don’t … Continue reading Set My Mind Free
I thought the weekend would help… I thought having my kids around would at least keep my mind busy… But no, if anything, it may have made it worse, these feelings that have been haunting me this past week… I hate seeing my kids go through this, though they’re still young, and don’t grasp the … Continue reading Clouded Judgement
Before going to bed last night, I felt a little better. Still in a state of depression, I just felt lonely. To be honest, I’ve never lived on my own before. Not saying that I can’t do it. More or less, its going to take some getting used to. I went from my parent’s house, … Continue reading Angst, Resentment and, Lethargy…
Day to day, I think I do pretty well… I have my good days. Days I’m able to get up, shower, get ready for work, and proceed throughout my day with no issues. Some days, I’ll have to get through with lingering thoughts in the back of my mind. None-the-less it doesn’t bother me too … Continue reading Lost…
Often times I’ll make food, and bring some over to my parent’s house. I’d say 85% of those times the food has meat in it. That being said, my Mom doesn’t eat meat (other than seafood). SO, 85% of the time I bring food over, she doesn’t get any. Which leads to messages like the … Continue reading Tilapia Katsu Wrap/Burrito
Part Two: This section will cover “Part TWO” of, This is Me… And frankly, it will be about my kids. Because, well… They are a big part of who I am. Without them, I wouldn’t be me. Without them, I would most likely be a lot more irresponsible with the decisions I make/have made. I … Continue reading This is ME (Part: TWO)
I’m sitting in this broken home all alone, every where that I look, makes me think about you, the pictures on the walls lend a glimpse to the past all the memories made. that I thought were meant to last. All alone in the darkness, I long… to see the light, Twisted and confused, by … Continue reading Broken Home (Original Lyrics)
