There is a saying that goes somewhere along the lines of, You shouldn’t change yourself for some one else. If you’re to change, change for yourself. My head was so fucked with, that at one point I tried to rationalize it as: I’m not changing for her, I’m changing for myself. Because I want to … Continue reading Changes&Standards` Finding Myself. →

There are only a handful of people I trust who know EXACTLY what’s going on… One thing I hear often is, What’s wrong with her! I would think to myself, That’s what I want to know… I gave her everything… I worked my ass off for her, for our family… I gave her everything she … Continue reading confusion, self loathing~ the revival* →

So since everything began, the beginning of the end, or so I shall call it; I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching. I’ve been looking a lot into the past, trying to find where I went wrong. Nothing, really in particular. Well, one thing in particular, but that’s a story for another time… I’ve … Continue reading Nostalgia~ Rebirth →

I’ve always thought myself a humble man… I’m respectful, courteous, shy, and soft-spoken. I’m simple, yet complex; but when the situation requires, I’ll say, and do what needs to be done. I’m diligent in just about everything I do, Whether it pertains to work, my kids, or love… I’m extremely timid, and it takes a … Continue reading This is ME (Part: THREE) →

So first off, let me explain the subject line.. One step forward~ fall off a fucking cliff… Basically stating, instead of taking 2 steps back. I fall off a fucking cliff… Make sense? Anytime I seem to find a peace about anything, anytime I find myself humble, and content. I have no right to be, … Continue reading one step forward~ fall off a fucking cliff →