More recently I’ve been living each day, merely biding my time…
I’ve been put in the position where I was pretty much told to wait.
I’ve been put in the position where I’ve had to put my life on hold.
Put in the position of simply waiting for the selfishness of others,
So that they can figure out wtf they feel like doing with their life,
not caring that the decisions they make also affect the lives of 3 others; all while they live their life “Free” to do what they want, to make “their own” decisions.

I’ve come to a standstill… I can’t move forward…
I can only live in each moment of time as it ticks away…
I can only live on each single grain of sand which falls from the neck
of an hourglass… I feel as if my life has frozen… and I’ve no control of what happens next…
I merely get the displeasure of watching all of the decisions made, unfold before me. I can’t live how I want. I can only watch as life passes by. I feel as if I no longer have a purpose in which to get me through my days.
No, let me rephrase that, I feel as if I’m no longer allowed to have a purpose…