“The more we purposefully distance ourselves from what we want; the stronger the desire grows to obtain such things.” -KSmith I didn’t sleep much last night. I may have fallen asleep somewhere between 0130 and 0200. Only for my alarms to start going off at 0330… Subconsciously I did the math, … Continue reading Dreams
I don’t have many readers here, there is 1, maybe 2 of you. I was pretty much just told that I’m slacking.. yes, I know, I’m slacking. I had every intention on writing a post today, (Other than this one of course) but then, I got caught up writing something else. When you get in … Continue reading Slacking
I just wanted to get this off of my chest… This year, has been a trial to say the least. The most vexing year of my life… It started off well, as do most things shortly before they fall to shambles… as the year’s end approaches, there is still a chapter of my story left unfinished, … Continue reading Thank you
I’m at the point where… I just want… Why did… Why can’t I… How come… There are so many incomplete inquiries lying stagnant within my mind… There are so many things left unsaid… So many things I’ve wanted to say… Yet at the same time, I don’t want a soul to know… So many feelings to sort … Continue reading Confusion
More recently I’ve been living each day, merely biding my time… I’ve been put in the position where I was pretty much told to wait. I’ve been put in the position where I’ve had to put my life on hold. Put in the position of simply waiting for the selfishness of others, So that they … Continue reading Purpose
I was recently introduced to a song performed by Miguel, titled: “Simple Things” I was told “That’s so you.” The more I thought about it, the more I came to grasp the reality of it. I’ve never longed for some luxurious life style, it’d be nice, yeah, but it’s never been something that I dreamed. … Continue reading simpleTHINGS
Dear Life, I’m not asking you to make anything easy for me… Just PLEASE at least give me a fighting chance… Regards, Kristopher E. S. Smith
I count the seconds, minutes, hours, and days.. Just biding my time. For what? I know not. I don’t know what the future holds, all I can do is speculate. Speculation however, does nothing but waste time, and eventually, my mind wanders to dark places I wish not to be. I don’t want to think … Continue reading Biding My Time
The previous few posts, I’ve talked about escaping my disheartened reality through sleep. Truth of the matter is, lately, when I sleep, I don’t dream. I’d rather have it this way. Just an abyss of emptiness in which to bide my time. However, the past couple nights have been hellish. I’ve awoken to a pounding … Continue reading Dreams, my daunting reality…
As if I didn’t have enough negative emotion coursing through my psyche, I feel bad… Throughout the day, several opportunities for social interactions are presented to me. Just run of the mill water-cooler-talk. I’ve noticed my attitude towards such situations has been, distant. I feel, irritated. I look, irritated. As much as I wish to … Continue reading Self Alienation.
