I’m at the point where…
I just want…
Why did…
Why can’t I…
How come…

There are so many incomplete inquiries lying stagnant within my mind…
There are so many things left unsaid…
So many things I’ve wanted to say…
Yet at the same time, I don’t want a soul to know…

So many feelings to sort through…
I don’t know what any of these things mean…
physical, mental, emotional.
I wish I could just shut it down,
I don’t want to feel anything anymore…
Not the pain of the past…
Not the excitement of the future…
I just want someone to hold me, and tell me,
everything will be alright.
Sounds immature, sure… but at this point in time,
I’ve just about given up on everything…
I feel like curling up in the middle of a dark room,
and just being held… I’ve given my all for so long…
Now, for the time being, I just want someone there for ME…
Is it wrong to want to be selfish?
I don’t fucking know, I’m just living in a state of confusion…

 “What time was that color, when that day of the flying panda, midnight.”

Yeah, exactly… HA

-kayeXe