Every day gets a little easier,
yet at the same time, every day has its speed bumps…
I try my best to keep my mind off of everything, but
there will ALWAYS be something that reminds me, and brings
me back to where i don’t want to be. It was a big, HUGE
part of my every day life, and my grieving process of
what I was originally going through.
Now, on top of having to deal w/ my original issue,
I’m having to deal w/ this one too.. the “Baggage”
keeps piling up.
I don’t have many people to talk to about what’s going on.
I don’t want to burden people w/ my issues.
That’s why I’ve chosen to continue on here.

There is one person I could talk to.
But its not fair for me to keep coming in and out of
that person’s life. It would be selfish for me to even
bother to try to talk to this person.
I need to let her live her life, and not be bothered
with me.

I’ve been writing a lot more than usual lately,
I’ve been recording a lot more than usual.
I’ve been drawing for myself, for expression,
for my kids, a lot more than usual.
This is how I’ve been trying to keep my mind
occupied. This is how I’m grieving.
This is how dealing w/ it all.

All in all, it’s helping… yet, still,
I wish I had someone to talk to.
That’s the one thing I feel I’m missing.